No Matter What You Are Going Through

I want to help you face

The demons that you hide

The ones you wrestle with inside

Day by day

Those demons that confuse you

Do hurtful things that bruise you

The ones you don’t reveal to anyone

You can show it to me

I want to take the plunge

To dive into the depths

The deepest darkest depths

Of your soul

To learn the secrets that you keep

Even the ones that make you weep

To hold them to my heart like treasures

And I will keep them locked away for you

I want to look you in the eyes

And be the only prize that you seek

With your hands wrapped up in mine

While our mouths together sigh

And our hearts intertwine

To hear you say, “You’re mine”

And engrave it in my mind

But what I want the most

Out of all that I desire

Is for joy to dance in your heart

And love to fill your life

For happiness to engulf you

So you won’t have to hide the demons

So you won’t have to keep your secrets

Even if I am not the prize you seek

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    I'm not going to make this one too long, but I hope everything that I'll say here will remind you how much you mean to me. 

    NO MATTER WHAT we're both in right now, even though you know it already. I want you to know that I'm always here for you. And always accepted who and what you really are. What ever mood you have, just tell me what you feel. Release all those things that makes you holding back from us. But keep in mind that by letting all those pain go, is also forgiving yourself. 

    Don't worry about me being your ranting bag, I know I should also take care of myself for us. But you know that I am capable of everything that you throw, that's my love for you and that's also handling both of us. Yes giving this to you is hard, but I hope sacrificing this will make you feel better. Not just better, I hope that you can find yourself again. 

    Teka naintindihan mo ba lahat? hehe parang confusing na yung english ko para sa akin. Ang rusty ng grammar. Anyway, I know malalagpasan din natin toh, basta ba kasama kita. Alam ko kaya natin lahat. 

But uhm the most important part is, kahit alam na mo na. Ang pinaka importante sa lahat ay yung pagiging masaya mo. Yung happiness mo.  It makes you who you are, not controlled. And also kasi yan yung mas nakakapag paganda pa lalo sayo, especially pag naka smile ka. I always pray, hope and wait na sana dumating yung time na mapatawad mo talaga ako and nalet go mo na lahat ng sakit. Releeeeaaaase everything that's heavy. Para wala ng nagbobother sayo, para hindi ka na nastestress or nagdodoubt. At para wala ka na ring mabigat na dala. 

    I miss you so much my love. Namimiss na kitang kulitin at lambingin. Namimiss na kita ng sobra lahat lahat, alam ko kasalanan ko kung bakit ka ganito ngayon. But I know if the day comes na ready ka na ulit, eveything will be worth it. At kung ano man eh, basta lagi mong tandaan na andito lang ako. Ay siya jan na lang muna, sabi ko hindi mahaba eh. Hehe. But para sayo tong lahat. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY 23rd MONTHSARY. Ikaw lang mahal, my everything. I love you so much, I always do. And I always will. 

"Whn you find you, come back to me.
Just know I'm here. Whenever you need me , I'll wait for you."

I Love being You.

    It's what I love about you. Just being you. Simple as it is. Yung ikaw na ikaw, na hindi mo makikita sa kahit na sino. You have that simplicity as beauty. That makes me treasure you even more. I do, everyday. That's why every single day, I appreciate and cherishes you. Hindi mo man pansin, you have every part of me in you. Lahat. As in. You being a girl, a friend, being my girlfriend, my wife, a family, a lover, a woman. All that you are. Independent, strong, honest, innocent, and in every part of you. Head to toe. Kahit pa sobrang dami mong rants, sa pagiging selosa mo, basta pag nagagalit ka. Naiintindihan ko kung bakit ka ganun. You're like that because you too, no, not too. Its because you love me more than I ever know and feel. Hindi naman siguro ilusyon yan noh mahal? It's what I really feel, Kahit sobrang busy mo pa lately.

    Ok yung lang, I'm just overwhelemed and happy sa pinapadama mo. Kahit pa ang tagal na nating magkalayo. You never stop being there for me. You never stop loving me. Uhm yun lang muna, even if there's more to share why I love you so much. I miss you so much love. Yep, kahit lagi pa kitang nakakausap, even if we're talking I still misses you. Ang pasaway ko lang kasi kaya inaasar mo ko. I love you my love. I do, from the very buttom of my heart. You're the only one that I ever love like this. Iloveyousomuch (kiss) 

Hindi niya alam kung anong kakainin niya eh. :3

22nd Month.

Hi Mi Amor Maldita,

    How to start this? I know I've been writing you letters since we first met, saving all of them in the blog seems very helpful for this event, kidding love! This is a new letter really, and which of course includes love party letters. But we've never been this public, like where everyone in audition community doesn't know about us. And here I am, having courage to share and letting them acknowledge our kind of love. To be honest I didn't join this event just to get us a couple points but also to share what we both have and boast it. Yep you heard it right, your love is a treasure that I can truly be proud of. Especially today (at your time actually; UAE area ) Its our 22nd monthsarry. Happy 22nd month to us my love. Hmm there's a lot to say, I hope I could write it all down here.

    We both know that we've been through a lot this year, and it was hella tough for us. But one thing I know for sure that stood out, that you never gave up no matter what the situation we're both in. We have that roller coaster path. A path where most times we don't know what's going to happen, where is; there's fun and scary part. A path that we only both have, enjoying and making the most out of it. Sounds fast, which is, it is quite fast. A year and ten months has a lot of happenings already.

    Even if a lot had happened, you've always been the passionate girl of my life. You never left even when you are so mad at me when we're having an argument. You never ceased to win my heart a thousand times even though I failed to show you who I truly am lately. You always makes me feel so good to have someone who knows how weak, stupid, and slow I am at times. You're always strong that you've been the one who's always cheering on both of us when we're down. You're the smile to my face, the sparkle in my eyes, and the one and only in my heart. You're the only one who completes me. You know these things already, but as I told you I will never get tired of reminding you how lovely you are to me. You always give and show how you truly love me. You love me more even I told you how much I love all of you. Mostly, you are trusting me with all of you. You never lose that faith in me because you believe and appreciates my love for you.

    What so good about us? Is that we can talk anything, joking around on those people who likes you with "what ifs" questions, we know if one is serious and not. We also never stop being friends with one another, where you and I give advises to each other. We have some similarities too, from the day that I met you, it already feels like we've been together for a long time already because we have a lot in common. We're always strong at holding on to our love. We support ones decision. And the best part is even if we're STILL that thousands and thousands and thousands of miles apart. (hey I don't really know how much far Dubai is from Seattle I just know it is far) and we haven't met physically, we never lose hope that there will come a day that we'll see each other one day physically.

    I know sometimes I make you easily irritated because on the small things that I easily forget, like I'm a child who needs to be kept on reminding at my actions. And I still have those little imperfections and flaws in me. But I'm sorry for making you mad. I know too that I asked for your forgiveness lots of times already but still even if I'm saying this a lot. I'm sorry for making it hard for you, because I caused you pain and you went through some hardships. But I'm telling you this for sure that I learned from my mistakes and will never let you down again. I will always show and make you feel love, I'll never give up to make your day everyday. I told you thousands of times too, that I'm always here to make you smile. Even as we grow older I want to be the one to put the smile at your face. I will never leave you no matter what.

    Your love is one thing I cherishes everyday. Because everyday, I learn something from you, and I always see the beauty in you. Ever since the day I choose you, I never stop loving you. Everyday my love grows stronger and fonder to you. You made me complete, you help me with a lot of things. And I never stop being grateful to what you give and show to me. As for the record I've never been this happy in my life. In our 22 months even if we have that crazy turns in our love, I also never been these crazy to fall in love with someone who truly knows me. Without you, there wouldn't be a point in me doing anything anywhere if you are not there by my side. That's why losing you is the only thing I'm afraid of, because having you in my life is the greatest gift I'll ever receive from up above. And I wouldn't let go of you for anything.

    And now I know there's still a lot of difficult circumstance to face. There's more to come to us, I know we can both face them together, stronger and fiercer. And as always we just have to make the most out of it, be the best at we could be. I'll give it my all with you, I'll fight for you and protect you from everything now. And because we understand more each other already. Too end this letter, just always remember that I'm here no matter what. Through out our journey of love, I'm with you up until we grow old. That my love and I are truly and surely yours only. Again Happy 22nd Monthsarry to us. I love you so much my love and I always will.
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    Uhm pwede na siguro ako magtagalog noh mahal? Grabeeeee po, kanina pa dumudugo ilong ko. Kasi kanina ko pa yan binabasa paulit-ulit. Yung letter pinasa sa game na nilalaro natin, may event eh. I posted it here <<< Last day ng deadline is birthday natin eh. So yan yung surprise. It wasn't much tho. But there's more down there yung video. :3 Hindi mapost sa instagram, bitin yung kanta. Kaya dito na lang, sana maya pagkauwi mo mahal masurprise ka konti. Kinikilig nga ako dun sa video eh, kahit na its nothing like what you make noon. Ganda lang po, para sayo. (kiss) Imissyousomuch mahal. Laters na po ha? Hindi pa ako nakakaligo dahil dito. jkjk Happy 22nd monthsarry ulit pinakamamahal ko (kiss) mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita mahal ko (kiss)

"Nothing will change, only that my love for you grows deeper and stronger everyday"

I Will And Will Only Adore You Over Again.

The lights that plaster the city skyline,

Are so daunting to me. 

The beauty that lies among the buildings,

Your face is all I can see. 

Left alone with you on my mind, 

It’s my favorite thing. 

I’ve been alone my whole life,

And with you things are turning out differently.

I’ll try and hold on the best I can,

This reality is so much better than anything I could of planned.

Trust me, darling.

These feelings are diamonds that we were destined to find.

Etched into the walls,

Your always on my mind.

Your eyes are like the ocean,

I wouldn’t mind getting lost in them,

And I wouldn’t mind never reaching the shore.

Believe me, I mean this and more.

You are something that I’ve always adored. 

And I’ll try and hold on the best I can,

This reality is so much better than anything I could of planned.

Trust me, darling.

These feelings are diamonds that we were destined to find.

Etched into the walls,

Your always on my mind.

Appreciation

  Hi mahal (kiss) alam ko hindi ko na to masyadong nagagawa not like before. Maybe making this isn't much a surprise for you, I guess. Kasi ito naman yung lagi kong ginagawa kahit dati pa. Uhm medyo taglish mahal ha, sana ok lang sayo mahal. :* 

  

  Letter of appreciation starts now (1st week). 

  

  Bakit ko to naisipang gawin, of course to appreciate what we shared in a day or a week. Mapa good or bad yan, I'll write it down here. Para na rin alam natin kung ano yung pinagdaanan natin, to make us more stronger and better in our relationship. In short para magbuild up lalo yung samahan natin. Hmm hindi man tayo matagal nagkakausap, unlike before. Kasi sympre sa mga bagay na sinusubukan tayo. I'm always grateful na tumawag ka, na andun ka, na kahit saglit lang (6hrs minimum natin :3 :*) magkausap tayo at nakita kita.  (Ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero kailangan kong isa isahin, xD) MOSTLY IMPORTANT, I want to put back the smile in your face. (kiss) 

  First of is "SORRY". My never ending sorry to you my love, sorry sa sorry. (<<< see ;Pray ikaw talaga pinapangiti lang kita :* pero seryoso yan love) Hmm mahal I want to say sorry again about the other day. Kung persistent man ako sa pagsabi ko nito, I have reason. I want you to believe in me. (At kahit pa nasabi ko na) Ayaw natin ng away diba po? But you see, I sworn to love you no matter what. Diba nga mapa left, right, up, down, wavy, twisted na daan pa. Andito lang ako. Hanggat wala akong dahilan na iwan ka (kahit kelan hindi naman nagkaroon) I won't ever leave your side ever (kiss) 

  Sorry kasi nagaway pa tayo, hindi ko masyadong na explain sayo yung pagiging praning ko sayo. Hmm kilala mo ko mahal, kaya nagtitiwala ako na naniniwala ka sa akin. (thank you dun mahal ko :*)

  And by saying sorry, I hope both of us ay magkaroon ng 2nd chance to keep foward in our relationship. Dahil araw araw binibigyan tayo ni Big Bro ng pagkakataon. 

  And of course the purpose of this letter. THANK YOU MY LOVE. Sa time, sa love, sa madaming chance. Thank you for calling, sa pagrinig ng side ko. Thank you for trusting me, for believing, for fighting (yep kasi ako nakakaaway mo, kahit sakit sa ulo mo :3 :*) Nagpapasalamat ako, kasi ikaw lang. Ikaw lang minahal ko ng ganito, ikaw lang pinakaimportante at mahalaga para sa akin. Ikaw na lahat lahat ko. 

  Most of it I love you. Kasi kahit ano pa yung pinagdadaanan natin, always remember I love you for who and what you are. (kiss) Everyday mahal, with or without struggles at the end of the day. I always love you more and more. Hindi ako mapapagod sa kahit anong circumstances na mangyari, basta ikaw rin (kiss) everything I said na "Hindi ko kaya ng wala ka" are all true. Sabi ko sayo, I can't imagine life without you anymore. 

  Kaya smile na mahal ko ha? (kiss) I bet gabi na jan pagnabasa mo to, kaya kahit man lang sa pagtulog mo. Nakasmile yang babg lalove ko na yan :* Sige na po mahal, laters po ulit. Next week para dito. iLoveyousomuch love ko :* 

When I say...

  That's why Love every time I say I love you to you, it comes from the very bottom of my heart and always mean it for you. 

In Missing Someone, It Is The SOULS..

  When two souls fall in love, there is nothing else but the yearning to be close to the other. 
The presence that is felt through a hand held, a voice heard, or a smile seen.

Souls do not have calendars or clocks, nor do they understand the notion of time or distance. 
They only know it feels right to be with one another.

This is the reason why you miss someone so much when they
are not there— even if they are only in the very next room.
Your soul only feels their absence— it doesn't realize the
separation is temporary.
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Can I ask you something?
Anything.
Why is it every time we say goodnight, it feels like goodbye?
 --Lang Leav 

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I see now why I misses you so much even when we're talking, or when you are sleeping my love.

17th Monthsarry

Babyyyy march came by fast, and now we're getting closer to be with one another. :3 Yey! Isang tulog na lang, na 1month. xD :3 :*

Hmm first and foremost HAPPY 17TH MONTHSARRY baby, iLoveyousomuch <3 :*

  Baby ko :* Pasensya na kung letter blog lang po ha? :* Wala ako nung mga letter na gumagalaw. :P video letter ba. :3 Wala si addie nun eh, tapos pagkauwi naman natin magiiba na, malaking letter naman. :3 Yun bang nasa cardboard or uhm yung parang manila paper LOL hindi ko maalala kung anong tawag eh, oh naalala ko na cartolina. Old school type eh mas matanda pa nga ata ko sayo baby ko eh. :3 :*

  Yes, oo na, kahit paulit ulit, hinding hindi naman ako magsasawa dahil ikaw ang pinakamamahal ko at gusto kong makasama ko habang buhay. Ang dami ulit nating pinagdaanan ngayong month, kaya nga parang ang bilis eh. Kahit na sabihin natin nung nagstart yung march na hinay-hinay lang muna, sinubukan tayo ni Big Bro. Dami nga eh, kung gusto mong ikwento ko lahat dito pwede naman. :3

  At dahil sa mga nangyari, gusto na talaga kitang makasama. Para pag may dumaan sa atin, nasa tabi mo talaga ako. Para kung ano man yung dumaan, hindi kung ano ano yung naiisip natin, hindi kung ano ano yung nasasabi natin sa isa't isa na masakit, at hindi rin kung ano ano yung nagagawa natin sa isa't isa na makakasakit sa atin pareho. Siguro kailangan talaga natin dumaan sa ganung proseso, siguro kahit sino naman. Para malaman kung makakapagpatibay ba ito ng pagiibigan natin o yung hindi natin gusto.

  Yung mga nangyari, masasabi kong nakapagpatibay at nilaliman ito ng pagmamahal ko para sayo. Ito din yung nakapagpatunay sa mga saliting "Buhay ko, mundo ko, asawa ko". Binuksan yung isip ko na, oo nga naman, hindi lang kita basta girlfriend, ikaw nga naman yung magiging katuwang, makakasama at mamahalin ko habang buhay. Kaya nga meron tayong, "Magkakasama na tayo sa isang bahay, magkakaroon tayo ng sariling pamilya, tatanda ng magkasama na masaya."

  Hmm sana sa kabila ng lahat, kahit ano mang pagdaanan natin. Sana wag na tayong maging padalos dalos sa mga sasabihin natin, wag na tayong magpapakalunod sa sitwasyon. Isipin lang natin na mahal natin ang isa't isa, na andito tayong dalawa magkasama para sa isa't isa, na ang layo na ng narating natin para lang bumitaw at sumuko sa isang bagay na tayo mismo alam natin na malalagpasan at mahaharap natin ang kinabukasan. Sana hindi ka magbago, sana hindi ka magsawa sa mga mangyayari please baby ko wag mo kong iwan. Hindi ko makakaya ng wala ka, Literal!

  Sorry sa mga hindi ko magawa, na sa wala ako ngayon,na ang maiibibigay ko lang sayo ngayon eh yung love na makakapagpasaya sayo asawa ko, sa pagiging paulit ulit na lang, sa kung sa tingin mo yung maliit na bagay ay hindi ko iniintindi, sa mga mangayayari sa atin lately na akala mo wala akong paki, na kung hanggang ngayon natututo pa rin lang ako.
Pero alam mo naman na sa kabila ng mga nangyayari baby ko, ikaw lang talaga ang meron ako. :* kahit nung pinakaumpisa na naging tayo, ikaw lang. Kaya nga sabi ko sayo dati, sayo pa lang mayaman at masaya na ako kasi po sobrang mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita, kahit MAS mahal na mahal na mahal mo ako. :*

  Thank you sa mga pagtitiis, sa mga sakripisyo mo, sa mga binigay mo, at sa mga pinadama mo, sa paniniwala, sa lahat. Still grateful na ako pa din, na ako lang ang mahal mo kahit ang dami dami at nagkagulo ng onti yung nangyari sa atin. Thank you kasi you're making me even more mature sa ibang bagay, tulad ng pagiging magasawa talaga natin. :3 :*

  Sorry kung medyo late na napost ni addie, yung mga sasabihin ko po kasi hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin ng maayos. Parang tulad nito, sorry kung minsan low confident ako sa sarili ko na may insecurities ako sa mga ex mo and fans mo. Aiiish nakakahiya sabihin. LMAO. Sample lang yan, react later. :3 :*

  Ayun, Happy 17th Monthsarry Asawa ko. :* mahal na mahal na mahal ka ni addie at kahit anong mangyari magkasama tayo dito, ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko :* iLoveyousomuch baby ko :* Wag nating papabayaan ang sarili natin, kasi syempre gusto nating magsama ng matagal :* magbebehave tayo at magmamahalan ng masaya through ups and down, kasama left and right. Seryoso. :P :3 iloveyou baby ko :* Kaya natin toh, aja! Paytiiing! Kasi after all this, yung lahat ng pain will be worth it, kasi malapit na tayong magkita at magkasama, konti na lang talaga mahal ko. :* Happy Birthday Love. :* ILOVEYOUSOMUCH! :*

"It's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard, we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that, because I want you. 
I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday"

You Are My Every Truth.

  Uhm lagay ko muna tong kanta mahal ko. :* Ikaw kasi yung tanging meron ako ngayon. Sayo ko din kasi ibibigay ang lahat ng makakaya ko maramdaman mo lang na mahal kita. :* Atsaka yung happiness na hinahangad nating pareho. :* Kaya naniniwala ako sayo, sabi ko diba dati "I'm trusting all of me to you." Hindi man ganyan yung pagkakasabi, basta isa lang ibig kong sabihin. Magtulungan tayo sa kung anong gusto nating marating at mahalin ang isa't isa ng parang wala ng bukas. Kasi baby, sa araw araw na binigay ni Big Bro wala akong ibang hinangad kung di ang maramdamang mong mahal kita at masaya ka. :* Kaya sobrang grateful na hanggang ngayon andito ka pa din sa tabi ko. :* 

  

  Kaya naman HAPPY 17TH MONTHSARRY Mahal ko. :* Iloveyousomuch baby ko. :* 

I Believe In You.

Hold my hand can you see it tremble? 
And feel my heart do you hear it whisper? 
A song of love saying just how much you mean to me 

Touch my face look into my eyes now 
Don't turn away I know we're all a big surprise 
How everything turn out 
But believe me it's how it's meant to be 
You know that 

Chorus :
I believe in you of all the other people 
You are my only truth
You have my heart right in your hands 
Wherever you may go 
Whatever life may hold for us 
You know that I'll be true coz I believe in you

So here I am vulnerable as ever 
Take me in your arms I am yours forever 
Keep me safe from harm 
Make me feel that you believe in me 
Just like how 
(Repeat chorus) 

When I believe in this 
I believe there's nothing I wouldn't miss 
Just as long as we have each other 
Growing old together we'll be young forever 
For as long us we believe 

You have my heart right in your hands 
Wherever you may go 
Whatever life may hold for us 
You know that I'll be true coz I believe in you

My All Of Me For You.

  Gusto ko lang isave tong kanta. Yung chorus kasi at yung ibang paragraph, sakto lang. 

For you baby. ALL OF ME.

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

Give me all of you

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

  Sana kahit ano mang  hirap ang pagdaanan natin, hindi tayo masyadong magbabago. Kasi magbabago naman talaga tayo sa bawat pagsubok na haharapin natin. Nasa atin lang naman kung paano tayo magbabago. Maaaring mapagod o magiging matatag tayo. At sympre dahil iba tayo, naging mas matibay tayo diba baby ko? :3 

  Sobrang thankful ko ngayong araw na toh mahal ko, nadagdagan na yung "Pwede bang manligaw ulit?" sa hinding hinding hindi ko malilimutan na mga araw na pinagsamahan natin. :* Kaya hinding hinding hindi ko na talaga sasayangin ito baby ko at hindi ko na hahayaan na may makasira pa sa atin. Aiight, hihiga na po ako. Pwede namang wag muna, para pagalitan mo ko noh mahal ko? :3 joke lang po. Happy 16th month love ko. :* Mahal na mahal na mahal kita, kahit pa na MAS mahal na mahal na mahal mo ko. ;Sly :* Laters baby ko. iLoveyousomuch. :* 

16th monthsarry.

  Hi baby batang makulit na mahal na mahal ko ng sobra. Its our 16th month. Love tayo ng Febuary eh, 28 days lang meron. Hihi. 

  Hmm una sa lahat dami nating pinagdaanan this month, it gave us a hard challenge. Yung LDR natin, naging LDR lalo nung nawalan ka ng net for 2weeks. It was like riding a roller coaster, even up to now. Kasi riding that extreme roller coaster was a frightening one. I can't never tell, even you can't never tell what might happened. But going after through those hardships, it was also funny kasi if we look back sobrang praning tayo sa isa't isa. Yung way nag pagiging malungkot mo tapos ako, pagtatampo mo at pag nagagalit ka. Thankfully, nalagpasan naman natin yung ride happily. Nakayanan natin yung iba, even from the start. WE'VE BEEN THROUGH A LOT ALREADY. Pero hindi naman tayo papatalo, dahil hindi naman bago sa atin yung babatuhin tayo ng malaking problema ng hindi natin nalalagpasan. 

  Sorry sa mga kasalanan at mali kong nagawa. I know I've been saying it a lot lately, sana maramdaman mo na sincere ako at pinagsisisihan ko naman po talaga yung maling nagawa ko. Because making you feel bad and hurt, is yung pinakaayaw ko na nararamdaman mo. Dahil iisa lang tayo diba? I feel what you feel, kaya it hurts more pag nararamdaman mo yan and ako yung nagcocause ng pain mo. Sorry I let and did something stupid which is out of your range. Sorry if I'm pushing you slowly to your limitations. Sorry if you're running out of patience. Sorry for making it hard especially to you, ikaw yung may sobrang daming binigay, beyond what I'm seeing and feeling. Sobrang nahigitan mo. Hindi ko sinasabing tatapatan ko, kaya nga I'm so grateful to feel it. Alam mo yan.

  Thank you SO MUCH. Sa lahat. Everything. Sa feelings mo, I didn't regret it. Loving you is the most wonderful choice that i've ever made and most beautiful feeling I've ever felt. Sa time that we've made and share. Sa effort. Sa family. Sa acceptance, for who I truly am. And ignorance for the fact na andami kong kasalanan, being insensitive and my flaws, you still care and love me as much as you could. 

  I LOVE YOU. Sa lahat ng way na pinakita at pinadama ko. In each, every way in right and best way that I could and know.  Sa kahit anong aspeto, including your imperfections, furious and rants. Lahat ng bumubuo sa  pagkatao mo. Mapaulo gang paa. Mostly your kind and caring heart, and your smile. 

January 24, 2014; 3:15pm (WA)

  Baby, asking me for another one of this. :3 Nakakatuwa lang, kasi kahit papaano gusto mo pa din makatanggap ng ganito sayo. Tapos na kasi yung mga mini letters na binibigay ko sayo eh. Sample nga daw.

Sample. :3

  Pwede pa naman tayong gumawa ng ganyan eh, dito or dun sa ibang account natin sa online game. Meron tayong ilan? Dami nga ng account natin eh. xD Gamer kasi baby ko. :* Hmm sorry kung hindi ko pa masyado naayos tong blog ah? :3 But I will, pag may time ;Sly :* And uhm yung iba nga nasa notebook, yung kahapon naka draft. :P But I'll post it later. :* 

  Anong meron? I mean anong magandang sabihin? :* Thank you :* sa time kanina, everyday naman. :* Laging thankful na makita at makausap ka. Kaya nga pag hindi ka nagoonline agad nagpapanic ako. LOL. Tapos sobrang laki pa ng time difference natin.12hrs. Body clock mo pa, Clock ko. Like Washington time. Hehe. xD Thank you lang kasi always make the moment cherishable nga diba? :*

  Tapos kanina, kaya medyo sad yung face. Kasi parang hindi na kita makikita at makakausap ng ilang years. Ganun ako kaworried sayo, isa pa ganun di naman dati pa. Pag hindi kita nakikita o nakakausap mawawala na sa sarili, mga ganun. And hmm mamimiss lang kita, kahit araw araaaaaaaaaaw pa tayo nagkakausap, kahit kausap kita miss kita. Eh tapos ganun pa, pero kung ang kapalit naman nun eh, makakasama na talaga kita physically kakayanin ko. Makasama ka lang. :* Sa iisang bahay, iisang kwarto at iisang kama. WOOOOOO! :DD 

  Ano pa ba? Hmm hindi mo pa nakwekwento yung kagabi eh. Pero baby kung ano man yan, andito lang si addie ha? :* Ready makinig, ready for you. Laging ready naman basta para sa atin. :* Tayo pa. Ikaw talaga. :*  Hmm kung marunong lang ako magsulat ng mga poems, ang dami ko na sigurong nasulat sayo. What else, wag muna natin masyadong pahabahin, para may masulat pa ulit bukas. Imissyou baby ko. Thank you din kasi you value even our small things. iLoveyou baby ko :* 

"Making you smile is part of my daily routine. That is my way of letting you know that you mean the world to me."

Cheer up baby poms poms! :*

  Baby, hmm here we go again :* on you overthinking things. :* baby ko, you shouldn't have to. :* it will only stress you out. Because look, we dont hold the future, even though i'll graduate college securely, we can never tell what could happen after that. Even now, after a minute, an hour, a day, a month, a year and so on. The least we could do is to, make that moment happy and contented. And ang hirap na magenglish ha? :( but yun nga, hindi naman natin alam. Yes there will be downs, pero hahayaan ba natin na maging down na lang yung buong moment? I'm telling you baby, I could achieve my dreams slowly with you. Kahit sa anong aspeto naman ganun, dahan dahan, hindi agad agad. Kailangan lang POSITIVE tayo habang tinatahak natin yung direksyon na yun. 

  Asan na yung dating, "KAYA NATIN YAN, KAYA KO LAHAT PARA SA ATIN" Hmm? Dati ikaw yung laging nagchecheer and nageencourage sa akin eh. Ikaw talaga. :* Kaya natin toh mahal ko, hindi naman tayo mastastuck sa pagiging ganun kung hard working tayo. I know you've been working since then, but please I'll show you. Papatunayan ko sayo, papatunayan natin sa kanila na kaya nating tumayo ng tayo lang. 

  Please come back na. Mahal ko. :* wag na magisip ng mga "paano kung ganito, paano kung ganyan". Hihilain talaga tayo niyan pababa eh, tapos matatakot hanggang sa you can't move dahil sa takot. Dati ganyan ako pero chinicheer mo ko lagi, pinapadama mo na kaya ko. Please baby, KAYA NATIN TOH, KAYA NATIN HARAPIN LAHAT NG MAGKASAMA. :* POSITIVE VIBES KAY BABY WOOOT WOOOT!! POMS POMS! :* Madami na tayong pinagdaanan, ikaw talaga. :* Are you just going to make this bring us down? NO, right? Please baby, POSITIVENESS & HAPPINESS and LOVE. Of course pag pinagsama-sama yan. Kaya diba? :* 

  So please please please please. Stay with me, kaya ko lahat lahat lahat lahat. Wag lang!! Ang iwan ako. Wag mo lang akong iwan. Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita sobra baby ko eh. And dahil sa pagmamahal na binibigay at pinapadama mo. Alam ko kaya ko kahit magumpisa pa tayo sa wala. Please? :* Cheer up my wifeeey :* my love, my life, my everything. 

  Addie's missing you so much. Kung alam mo lang. Ahaaaay babyyyy go online na, kausapin mo ko. Please? Iloveyou! Iloveyouuusomuch baby ko. Cheer up! We can face everything! Iloveyouuuu! :*

  

  Oh oh psssssss. Pag down sino ikoconsult natin? Si Big Bro diba? :* Big Bro, please give my baby back her positiveness and cheerfulness, strenght for both of us to the things You're trying us to over come to. And Thank You, for bringing us both out here, kung di po dahil sa mga pinagdaanan namin hindi po kami makakatungtong kung nasaan man kami ngayon. Thank You po! Amen. 

10 Most Important Things

1. LOVE : The special feeling that makes you feel all warm and wonderful.
2. RESPECT : Treating others as well as you would like to be treated.
3. APPRECIATION : To be grateful for all the good things life has to offer.
4. HAPPINESS : The full enjoyment of each moment. And a smiling face.
5. FORGIVENESS : The ability to let things be without anger.
6. SHARING : The joy of giving without thought of receiving.
7.HONESTY : The quality of always telling he truth.
8. INTEGRITY : The purity of doing what's right, no matter what.
9. COMPASSION : The essence of feeling another's pain, while easing their hurt.
10. PEACE: The reward for living the 10 most important things.

""Oh well even though it wasn't listed here, I will never forget all this. Because everyday I feel all this with you baby. :3 :* ""

Just the way you are.

  Baby, san ka na? I missyouuu! We're both busy, not busy may ginagawa lang. Kausap mo si inay, and nagtitiklop naman ako. Bukas ko nga gagawin yung iba eh. Hehe. :P

  I just want you to listen to this song. <<< Because this is how I feel when I look at you through the cam when we're skyping. Geez baby, kahit paulit uliiiit pa. I will never get tired of saying how beautiful you are everyday until we get old. I will never get tired of everything you have, EVERYTHING YOU ARE. Sa pagiging downer/pessimist  mo, maldita, selosa to being caring, sobrang understanding, mapagmahal, malambing. Because its YOU. Only you, nothing else just you. And I love you just the way you are. <333

 And and always smile baby, kahit meron tayong pinagdadaanan. Wag tayong masyadong pakastress, because after all this magkakasama naman na tayo. :3 :* Kaya keep smiling, pero bago magsmile maglabas muna ng sama ng loob kay addie para hindi pilit ang smile. :* Mas maganda ka pag nakasmile eh. :* 

  Babyyy ko, patingin mo na yung heart mo pls. ;Pray I want you to be with me as long as we could live. RAWR! Imissyou baby!! I can't wait to be with you, kahit ikaw lang meron ako. Katumbas naman nun eh ang pagiging masaya and kontento kasama ka. :* Pagaling ka mahal ko. :*

  Ay siya this is it for now. :* Have to sleep na. I miss you so much baby ko. Goodnight mahal ko, tabi tayo. :* I love you so much baby. :*

January 04,2014; 8:30pm (WA)

  Bebebii!! Hi! Hehe. What to write here? there's a lot in my mind. Paano isa isahin? First, how was your day while addie's working? Well ok ka naman siguro sana noh kung hindi lang ako pumasok kanina. [this pen sucks :( ] < sorry. XD Maarte kasi ako sa gamit sa mga ganitong bagay eh. lol ang fail pa, dalawang page yung nalakatawan sa front. lol last na toh, ito na nga lang munang pen. >.< Pati sa pagsulat gulo gulo noh?
  Anyway, Bebe! dont't be a dream, please? You are too good to be a dream, I want you so badly to be just my dream well yung dream na bad is what I mean. Totoong totoo ka naman diba mahal ko? Ikaw na lahat lahat ko eh. Kahit matagal ko na sinasabi and nasasabi, kahit paulit ulit pa. Ikaw lang naman talaga eh. Ikaw na talaga. Ikaw nagpatino sa akin. Ikaw ngayon yung dumadaretsyo sa buhay ko. Kahit na ang dami nating pinagdaanan hindi mo ko iniwan (Baby medyo antok na and pagod nagpm kasi ako sayo na pampatulog ko toh. :3) 
  Hmmm tuloy ko po bukas. Baka pagalitan mo ko late ako natulog. XD Goodnight mahal ko! iLoveyou! 

The notebook of our love.

  Babyy!!! I think this is much more convenient than writing it in a real actual notebook. Pero mas maganda pa din kung isusulat tho, but mas madali lang magtype? XD Anyway panget naman sulat ko eh. :P So para kahit pag nangangalay na ako I could still write. :* Anong gagawin na sa notebook tho? :* Hmmm magdodoodle na lang ako dun ng random thoughts :3 And magdadrawing. 

  Sa ngayon I'm doing multitasking. 

Kain and type. Wag mo kong tulugan bebe ;Pray

  Addie kasi masyadong antukin. Sorry mahal ko :* Tampo ka na nga kanina kay tita na naputol agad pagsaskype natin. Tapos hindi pa agad ginawa ito ni addie. Sorry mahal ko. :* Hmm pag may away tayo hindi ko muna lalagay dito agad ah? Kasi po minsan mas nega pa ako sayo. Buti na lang yung unang ilalagay ko (next to this one) positive. Sumunod na araw kasi that time is may misunderstanding tayo. 

  Babyy, how to fix le theme? ;Pray Paki ayos pls. :3 Ako naman magsusulat eh, thank you mahal ko. :* Alrightyy then I'm going to write what was written in the notebook na. :* Ang taglish ko naman pala magsalita. iLoveyou mahal koooooo! Imisssyouuuu! mwah! :*