51st Months.

Si baby hindi ako makapagsulat LOL kasi nagbabasa ka. XD Joke. Mageenglish kasi sana ako di nga lang ako makapagfocus. XD

ANYWAAAAY! HAAAAAAAAAAAAPPY 51st! WOOOOOO! AMAZIIIING! 4years and 3months. :D Para sa new blog, hindi naman na siguro tayo gagawa ng bago dahil ito na ito? This is et? Lol

First of all up until now, I can’t believe still that we’re still together. YES! In 51 months, madaming nangyari. SOBRA! Dahil once again chinallenge tayo ni Big Bro ng sobra May 2016 to July 2016. Masyado kasi niya tayong mahal talaga. But hindi naman ako nagsisi, yes it hurts but it made us both strong. (I’m rumbling I guess huhu) Strong sa part na hindi na talaga natin kayang mawala yung isa’t isa. AND!!! May blessing naman na kapalit. So haaaappyy to be with you even for a short time. Flew 7,399 miles just to see you – December 2016. Grabe po, ever since you are THE most wonderful thing that happened to me. LAHAT BABY, EVERYTHING IS ALL WORTH IT. See oh all caps pa nga. Hehe. Uhm will not make this one too long, for now. I just want you to know how bless I am for all the things that happened to us, including negative ones. Kasama kasi yun love, lahat parte siya ng pundasyon natin.

HAPPY 51st MONTHS MY LOVE. ILOVEYOUSOMUCH. I will not exchange you on anything in this world. YOU ARE THE MOST IMPORTANT. I love you and will love you till infinity. Happy birthday baby. mwah!

"And I looked and looked at her, 
and knew as clearly as I know that I loved her 
more than anything I had ever seen 
or imagined on earth, or hoped anywhere else."

I Love You Till The End.

For all I thought, I need a new place to stay,

Then I saw that my home is where your smile is.

I thought something else can make me happier,

Then I heard that your laugh is what makes me the happiest.

I thought something different can be my sun,

But I realize that you are my moon that lights me up 
No matter what in my darkest night.

I thought something else is sweeter than you

Then I realize that even you are the cause of my most painful toothache
You are worth suffering for.

I thought that just because something else can make it feel better than you do,

Then and there I felt it, that you are giving me all you've got every day.

And I thought that you're better off without me
And I forgot that I've already given and entrusted you my heart. 
And that's when I realize that you are taking care of it.

YES, I LOVE YOU.
And there is more to it than loving you.

But I will. No matter what it takes, no matter what it'll cost.

As long as you are with me committed and happy living both of our lives 
Until it takes us to the end to live in this world we're in.

No Matter What You Are Going Through

I want to help you face

The demons that you hide

The ones you wrestle with inside

Day by day

Those demons that confuse you

Do hurtful things that bruise you

The ones you don’t reveal to anyone

You can show it to me

I want to take the plunge

To dive into the depths

The deepest darkest depths

Of your soul

To learn the secrets that you keep

Even the ones that make you weep

To hold them to my heart like treasures

And I will keep them locked away for you

I want to look you in the eyes

And be the only prize that you seek

With your hands wrapped up in mine

While our mouths together sigh

And our hearts intertwine

To hear you say, “You’re mine”

And engrave it in my mind

But what I want the most

Out of all that I desire

Is for joy to dance in your heart

And love to fill your life

For happiness to engulf you

So you won’t have to hide the demons

So you won’t have to keep your secrets

Even if I am not the prize you seek

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    I'm not going to make this one too long, but I hope everything that I'll say here will remind you how much you mean to me. 

    NO MATTER WHAT we're both in right now, even though you know it already. I want you to know that I'm always here for you. And always accepted who and what you really are. What ever mood you have, just tell me what you feel. Release all those things that makes you holding back from us. But keep in mind that by letting all those pain go, is also forgiving yourself. 

    Don't worry about me being your ranting bag, I know I should also take care of myself for us. But you know that I am capable of everything that you throw, that's my love for you and that's also handling both of us. Yes giving this to you is hard, but I hope sacrificing this will make you feel better. Not just better, I hope that you can find yourself again. 

    Teka naintindihan mo ba lahat? hehe parang confusing na yung english ko para sa akin. Ang rusty ng grammar. Anyway, I know malalagpasan din natin toh, basta ba kasama kita. Alam ko kaya natin lahat. 

But uhm the most important part is, kahit alam na mo na. Ang pinaka importante sa lahat ay yung pagiging masaya mo. Yung happiness mo.  It makes you who you are, not controlled. And also kasi yan yung mas nakakapag paganda pa lalo sayo, especially pag naka smile ka. I always pray, hope and wait na sana dumating yung time na mapatawad mo talaga ako and nalet go mo na lahat ng sakit. Releeeeaaaase everything that's heavy. Para wala ng nagbobother sayo, para hindi ka na nastestress or nagdodoubt. At para wala ka na ring mabigat na dala. 

    I miss you so much my love. Namimiss na kitang kulitin at lambingin. Namimiss na kita ng sobra lahat lahat, alam ko kasalanan ko kung bakit ka ganito ngayon. But I know if the day comes na ready ka na ulit, eveything will be worth it. At kung ano man eh, basta lagi mong tandaan na andito lang ako. Ay siya jan na lang muna, sabi ko hindi mahaba eh. Hehe. But para sayo tong lahat. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY 23rd MONTHSARY. Ikaw lang mahal, my everything. I love you so much, I always do. And I always will. 

"Whn you find you, come back to me.
Just know I'm here. Whenever you need me , I'll wait for you."

I Love being You.

    It's what I love about you. Just being you. Simple as it is. Yung ikaw na ikaw, na hindi mo makikita sa kahit na sino. You have that simplicity as beauty. That makes me treasure you even more. I do, everyday. That's why every single day, I appreciate and cherishes you. Hindi mo man pansin, you have every part of me in you. Lahat. As in. You being a girl, a friend, being my girlfriend, my wife, a family, a lover, a woman. All that you are. Independent, strong, honest, innocent, and in every part of you. Head to toe. Kahit pa sobrang dami mong rants, sa pagiging selosa mo, basta pag nagagalit ka. Naiintindihan ko kung bakit ka ganun. You're like that because you too, no, not too. Its because you love me more than I ever know and feel. Hindi naman siguro ilusyon yan noh mahal? It's what I really feel, Kahit sobrang busy mo pa lately.

    Ok yung lang, I'm just overwhelemed and happy sa pinapadama mo. Kahit pa ang tagal na nating magkalayo. You never stop being there for me. You never stop loving me. Uhm yun lang muna, even if there's more to share why I love you so much. I miss you so much love. Yep, kahit lagi pa kitang nakakausap, even if we're talking I still misses you. Ang pasaway ko lang kasi kaya inaasar mo ko. I love you my love. I do, from the very buttom of my heart. You're the only one that I ever love like this. Iloveyousomuch (kiss) 

Hindi niya alam kung anong kakainin niya eh. :3

22nd Month.

Hi Mi Amor Maldita,

    How to start this? I know I've been writing you letters since we first met, saving all of them in the blog seems very helpful for this event, kidding love! This is a new letter really, and which of course includes love party letters. But we've never been this public, like where everyone in audition community doesn't know about us. And here I am, having courage to share and letting them acknowledge our kind of love. To be honest I didn't join this event just to get us a couple points but also to share what we both have and boast it. Yep you heard it right, your love is a treasure that I can truly be proud of. Especially today (at your time actually; UAE area ) Its our 22nd monthsarry. Happy 22nd month to us my love. Hmm there's a lot to say, I hope I could write it all down here.

    We both know that we've been through a lot this year, and it was hella tough for us. But one thing I know for sure that stood out, that you never gave up no matter what the situation we're both in. We have that roller coaster path. A path where most times we don't know what's going to happen, where is; there's fun and scary part. A path that we only both have, enjoying and making the most out of it. Sounds fast, which is, it is quite fast. A year and ten months has a lot of happenings already.

    Even if a lot had happened, you've always been the passionate girl of my life. You never left even when you are so mad at me when we're having an argument. You never ceased to win my heart a thousand times even though I failed to show you who I truly am lately. You always makes me feel so good to have someone who knows how weak, stupid, and slow I am at times. You're always strong that you've been the one who's always cheering on both of us when we're down. You're the smile to my face, the sparkle in my eyes, and the one and only in my heart. You're the only one who completes me. You know these things already, but as I told you I will never get tired of reminding you how lovely you are to me. You always give and show how you truly love me. You love me more even I told you how much I love all of you. Mostly, you are trusting me with all of you. You never lose that faith in me because you believe and appreciates my love for you.

    What so good about us? Is that we can talk anything, joking around on those people who likes you with "what ifs" questions, we know if one is serious and not. We also never stop being friends with one another, where you and I give advises to each other. We have some similarities too, from the day that I met you, it already feels like we've been together for a long time already because we have a lot in common. We're always strong at holding on to our love. We support ones decision. And the best part is even if we're STILL that thousands and thousands and thousands of miles apart. (hey I don't really know how much far Dubai is from Seattle I just know it is far) and we haven't met physically, we never lose hope that there will come a day that we'll see each other one day physically.

    I know sometimes I make you easily irritated because on the small things that I easily forget, like I'm a child who needs to be kept on reminding at my actions. And I still have those little imperfections and flaws in me. But I'm sorry for making you mad. I know too that I asked for your forgiveness lots of times already but still even if I'm saying this a lot. I'm sorry for making it hard for you, because I caused you pain and you went through some hardships. But I'm telling you this for sure that I learned from my mistakes and will never let you down again. I will always show and make you feel love, I'll never give up to make your day everyday. I told you thousands of times too, that I'm always here to make you smile. Even as we grow older I want to be the one to put the smile at your face. I will never leave you no matter what.

    Your love is one thing I cherishes everyday. Because everyday, I learn something from you, and I always see the beauty in you. Ever since the day I choose you, I never stop loving you. Everyday my love grows stronger and fonder to you. You made me complete, you help me with a lot of things. And I never stop being grateful to what you give and show to me. As for the record I've never been this happy in my life. In our 22 months even if we have that crazy turns in our love, I also never been these crazy to fall in love with someone who truly knows me. Without you, there wouldn't be a point in me doing anything anywhere if you are not there by my side. That's why losing you is the only thing I'm afraid of, because having you in my life is the greatest gift I'll ever receive from up above. And I wouldn't let go of you for anything.

    And now I know there's still a lot of difficult circumstance to face. There's more to come to us, I know we can both face them together, stronger and fiercer. And as always we just have to make the most out of it, be the best at we could be. I'll give it my all with you, I'll fight for you and protect you from everything now. And because we understand more each other already. Too end this letter, just always remember that I'm here no matter what. Through out our journey of love, I'm with you up until we grow old. That my love and I are truly and surely yours only. Again Happy 22nd Monthsarry to us. I love you so much my love and I always will.
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    Uhm pwede na siguro ako magtagalog noh mahal? Grabeeeee po, kanina pa dumudugo ilong ko. Kasi kanina ko pa yan binabasa paulit-ulit. Yung letter pinasa sa game na nilalaro natin, may event eh. I posted it here <<< Last day ng deadline is birthday natin eh. So yan yung surprise. It wasn't much tho. But there's more down there yung video. :3 Hindi mapost sa instagram, bitin yung kanta. Kaya dito na lang, sana maya pagkauwi mo mahal masurprise ka konti. Kinikilig nga ako dun sa video eh, kahit na its nothing like what you make noon. Ganda lang po, para sayo. (kiss) Imissyousomuch mahal. Laters na po ha? Hindi pa ako nakakaligo dahil dito. jkjk Happy 22nd monthsarry ulit pinakamamahal ko (kiss) mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita mahal ko (kiss)

"Nothing will change, only that my love for you grows deeper and stronger everyday"

I Will And Will Only Adore You Over Again.

The lights that plaster the city skyline,

Are so daunting to me. 

The beauty that lies among the buildings,

Your face is all I can see. 

Left alone with you on my mind, 

It’s my favorite thing. 

I’ve been alone my whole life,

And with you things are turning out differently.

I’ll try and hold on the best I can,

This reality is so much better than anything I could of planned.

Trust me, darling.

These feelings are diamonds that we were destined to find.

Etched into the walls,

Your always on my mind.

Your eyes are like the ocean,

I wouldn’t mind getting lost in them,

And I wouldn’t mind never reaching the shore.

Believe me, I mean this and more.

You are something that I’ve always adored. 

And I’ll try and hold on the best I can,

This reality is so much better than anything I could of planned.

Trust me, darling.

These feelings are diamonds that we were destined to find.

Etched into the walls,

Your always on my mind.

Appreciation

  Hi mahal (kiss) alam ko hindi ko na to masyadong nagagawa not like before. Maybe making this isn't much a surprise for you, I guess. Kasi ito naman yung lagi kong ginagawa kahit dati pa. Uhm medyo taglish mahal ha, sana ok lang sayo mahal. :* 

  

  Letter of appreciation starts now (1st week). 

  

  Bakit ko to naisipang gawin, of course to appreciate what we shared in a day or a week. Mapa good or bad yan, I'll write it down here. Para na rin alam natin kung ano yung pinagdaanan natin, to make us more stronger and better in our relationship. In short para magbuild up lalo yung samahan natin. Hmm hindi man tayo matagal nagkakausap, unlike before. Kasi sympre sa mga bagay na sinusubukan tayo. I'm always grateful na tumawag ka, na andun ka, na kahit saglit lang (6hrs minimum natin :3 :*) magkausap tayo at nakita kita.  (Ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero kailangan kong isa isahin, xD) MOSTLY IMPORTANT, I want to put back the smile in your face. (kiss) 

  First of is "SORRY". My never ending sorry to you my love, sorry sa sorry. (<<< see ;Pray ikaw talaga pinapangiti lang kita :* pero seryoso yan love) Hmm mahal I want to say sorry again about the other day. Kung persistent man ako sa pagsabi ko nito, I have reason. I want you to believe in me. (At kahit pa nasabi ko na) Ayaw natin ng away diba po? But you see, I sworn to love you no matter what. Diba nga mapa left, right, up, down, wavy, twisted na daan pa. Andito lang ako. Hanggat wala akong dahilan na iwan ka (kahit kelan hindi naman nagkaroon) I won't ever leave your side ever (kiss) 

  Sorry kasi nagaway pa tayo, hindi ko masyadong na explain sayo yung pagiging praning ko sayo. Hmm kilala mo ko mahal, kaya nagtitiwala ako na naniniwala ka sa akin. (thank you dun mahal ko :*)

  And by saying sorry, I hope both of us ay magkaroon ng 2nd chance to keep foward in our relationship. Dahil araw araw binibigyan tayo ni Big Bro ng pagkakataon. 

  And of course the purpose of this letter. THANK YOU MY LOVE. Sa time, sa love, sa madaming chance. Thank you for calling, sa pagrinig ng side ko. Thank you for trusting me, for believing, for fighting (yep kasi ako nakakaaway mo, kahit sakit sa ulo mo :3 :*) Nagpapasalamat ako, kasi ikaw lang. Ikaw lang minahal ko ng ganito, ikaw lang pinakaimportante at mahalaga para sa akin. Ikaw na lahat lahat ko. 

  Most of it I love you. Kasi kahit ano pa yung pinagdadaanan natin, always remember I love you for who and what you are. (kiss) Everyday mahal, with or without struggles at the end of the day. I always love you more and more. Hindi ako mapapagod sa kahit anong circumstances na mangyari, basta ikaw rin (kiss) everything I said na "Hindi ko kaya ng wala ka" are all true. Sabi ko sayo, I can't imagine life without you anymore. 

  Kaya smile na mahal ko ha? (kiss) I bet gabi na jan pagnabasa mo to, kaya kahit man lang sa pagtulog mo. Nakasmile yang babg lalove ko na yan :* Sige na po mahal, laters po ulit. Next week para dito. iLoveyousomuch love ko :*